Something my history teacher posted...that I loved :)

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

Jeremiah 29:11-13

So, lately, I really feel that God has been tell me to seek Him with my whole heart. Last night I read Jeremiah 29:11-13, and verse 13 really hit me in a way that it never really has before.

13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Wow. I really love that. But what does that mean? What does it mean to seek God with my whole heart?
I really want to know. Because I want to find God. I want to be so close to Him that I have no trouble giving Him everything. I don't want to fight for my way anymore. I want God to have control, because when my life feels out-of-control, is usually when I'm trying to control it.



Without You I'm running out of time,
To live,
Running out of love,
To give,
Running of life,
With in,
God Help me.

From the Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame my heart and my soul,
Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

Me and my weird interests...

So, for all of you that care to know, my latest interest is Irish folklore. Odd, I know...
I just love old legends...honestly, I love most of anything old fashioned...I love King Arthur stories and Shakespeare, and old fairy tales. Back when I was about 6 or 7, my favorite book was Saint George and the Dragon, and we own this really nice children's version with beautiful illustrations, and I would always ask my mom to read it to me, but it would come out as: "Mom, will you read Deda Dorge dede ded Dragon?" Yeaah, I couldn't say the title...but I loved the story :) To this day, I still have it, and I still read it occasionally.
Anywho, I love my book that I just bought at Barnes and Noble... Irish Faerie Tales.


"... I felt a peace steal over my soul, and yes, I felt the bruises in my heart. But to be bruised is to be human, to be coursing with blood. For bruises are caused by blood spilled under the skin. They are the tears that bleed inside..."
~Mary, Queen of Scots.

I am such a horrible blogger, I know!

Hey guys, sorry about not posting for awhile...its been kinda crazy in our neck of the woods, and I've been busy.

I found out something very disturbing this past Friday, and I am actually going to share it with you.

My best friend Kelsey came down to visit me...I haven't seen her in three years, so that was amazing. One of her best friends (lets just call her Mallory to respect her privacy) had a friend named Cassidy who killed herself in November of this past year. I've known this since the actual incident, and I knew that Mallory was having a really hard time dealing with this tragedy. Anyhow, Kelsey showed me the obituary. Ask I was reading, I got those chilling feelings...and I realized that I know/knew Cassidy. In the obituary, it mentioned that she did dance at a school where I did dance for four years, and then I looked at her picture, and I realized that we took a class together.
Now don't get me wrong, I wasn't close with her or anything like that...but the fact that I knew her...I don't know why...but its just...mind blowing? I can't imagine why she would do something like that...or why anyone would... I can understand not wanting to exist, but to really end your own life...
This just really is blowing my mind.